Step by step

When I applied for the college I worried about three things:” Did I do the right thing for me when I apply for the college? How I am going to organize my time? What if I chose wrong major?”.
First dilemma was did I do the right thing to apply for the college? I asked myself so many times if I will be able to stay at the college four years more. Do I want to study or work and have more free time for myself and for my friends? Do I want to spend my time with book in the hands or remote control? What if I start and then change my mind? After all of this question I just said to myself :” relax ,Sonja, you are going to be fine, go to the school that is the best thing for you. You are nobody with no education”.
After when I finally decided to go to school and not to change the mind I felt a fear that I am not will be able to organize my time well. I also work and I was wondering how is possible to study and work in the same time. I need money and option to leave a job was non exceptable. I knew that I need to have a time for my homework what led me to the same question “do I want to study?”.I decided to work hard and study harder, because this is only way to make a progress for the future.
Third thing what I am worry about is to find right choice for me. I am sometimes confuse about what I want to do in my life and if that can be the best profession for me. I always wanted to be the best no matter what I do. That is how my parents taught me all my life. Possibility that I can choose wrong profession and not be the best drives me crazy. My father always likes to say that for right decision we need a time. Anything fast cannot be good, than I am waiting for something good to come in my head. Hopefully, is going to happen soon.

In conclusion, I can tell that I am not only one who is little scared about the school. Most of my friend went through same dilemma and this make me to think this is natural feeling to feel a fear when you are doing new steps in the life.